I know…
I’ve said things in previous Blogs…
But im Learning….
Im Growing…
Previously in one of my blogs i mentioned how me and my Current boyfriend Victor Thizzed…I know i said it was awesome and how we were all over eachother… and honestly i dont think we would be as close as we are today without it… but that doesnt make it right in anyway. Ive learned that it isnt good for you. not only from people telling me but from experience. i know how it can hurt the people around you and how it can hurt you, yourself.
The drug isnt chemically addicting but it is emotionally; and it is something thats hard not to want… i mean who wouldnt want to feel completely carefree… but when things start to happen and you begin to realize that your not responding the way you should… its scary…
When your stopped by the police and you and your boyfriend are high and you somehow arent tested or anything… and somehow you just arent afraid as you should be… its so scary…
I havent been on for so long so noone really knows that i had asked my boyfriend if we could both stop thizzing… and the momment i asked he said yes… but things happen… both of you are cool with doing it one last time and then your almost caught… that was this case…
almost 2 months later something else happens… my boyfriend decides to do it again… this time without me… on the same day that i had asked him “dont do drugs with out me ok ? 
” silly i know… it was just a joke but it was still serious too… and then on the same day that i say ” i have complete trust in you i just dont trust William”… it was upsetting that he came to my house that night high… waiting to tell me after he told me all the “crazy stories ” of the night…
well what was i suposed to do? i was upset and i didnt know how to handle it Plus i always have a nack of not addressing the issue fully in one sitting which isnt healthy in any relationship… but after some time i explained things… not in the best ways… and i hurt his feelings but it got through to him i think =/
i told him how it scared me, how it hurt him and how it took him away from me i a sense… how i didnt like that if something happened… he wouldnt be able to respond in the way he normally would…
I also asked for help and though i know i havent given the complete story.. i kinda have to go now. so heres the link to the person i asked for help… maybe she can clue you in a little she didnt get the whole story right but i think her advice is perfect…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnAnMeRUqDc
By the way… me and my victor are doing pretty good now as i had said in my previous blog and just like she said… i really do plan to just stay by his side and show him my love… cause whether he understands it or not… he’s the most important thing to me ^_^ I love Victor so much…
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